I just realised that our parents LITERALLY NEVER showed the slightest bit of interest in any of our hobbies or interests except when we picked up their hobbies or it was for school. Everything else was always, automatically annoying, bothersome and a waste of time and silly.
10 years later we still feel convinced that what we like will only ever be annoying and bothersome to others.
What’s fucked me up is that I’ve only recently realized that I actually isolate myself by hiding my hobbies and interests from pretty much everyone I know in real life in order to avoid potential ridicule.
Like, oh shit, that pattern of behavior…where I only share my interests with folks online…that comes right from feeling like there was no one else I could share my interests with back when I was a teenager.
Reading this helped me realize that I did the same thing for the longest time. Tbh I still do it. I’m still afraid to talk too much about the stuff I’m interested in to people that I love and trust. This is one of the hallmarks of childhood emotional neglect that can impact your relationships for decades if you’re unaware of this behavior and where it comes from.
I think this is one reason why my Tumblr is such a wild swing, where my presence is either 10,000 word rants that come across as weirdly aggressive, or shyly and silently reblogging a gifset of something I love. I either go Too Hard over something too small, or stay completely silent about something I love very much, lest someone take it from me and destroy it.
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@mostlycatsmostly so cute!
Cable, about Wade: Ugh, I can’t believe I’m gonna sleep with him.
Domino: Well, you don’t have to.
Cable: Nah, I’m gonna.
wiggle ^~^
As it’s the Glorious 25th of May what about a space AU and arranged marriage with Vimes and Lady Sybil?
Well, it’s no longer the Glorious 25th of May because I am the
slowest writer alive and I have never written Discworld before, but I love
Vimes and I love Lady Sybil so let’s do this. I may also have gone with a
loose definition of arranged.Ankh-Morpork is a small moon compared to the aging Uberwald empire or the
twin moons of Klatch and Ecks Ecks Ecks Ecks, but what it lacks in size it
more than makes up for in attitude. While it is, most planet of the Disc
system agree, tiresome, its Patrician is not a man to cross.Vetinari has transformed Ankh-Morpork into a thriving moon with a mostly
functional economic system and something even resembling culture. But the
Disc is built on old alliances and understandings and Ankh-Morpork has
little of those. It does, however, have the Ramkin family, which in turn
hsa ties to nearly every old family of every planet. The Ramkin fortune may
have faded over the years, Vetinari is still friends with the remaining
Ramkin daughter, Lady Sybil, who is the sole heir of the house and is
unmarried.And then there is, of course, Vimes. Ankh-Morpork loved Vimes in the way
only it could: it hated him right up until it needed him and then it
dredged up some goodwill and claimed it had been there the entire time.
Vimes was descended from a family who believed people were bastards but
underneath that were worthwhile. They planted themselves on the side of
what was right, no matter the cost, and slaid kings.Vimes is of the people, and given how much the heads of the guild despised
him, Vetinari held high hopes for Vimes’ political future and how to secure
it.
IT’S PERFECT
For the record while ATLA is an excellent show and Zukos redemption arc was perfectly paced, I would kill to have had Zuko join the Gaang at the end of book two, because the first half of book three would have been the funniest thing on the planet. Like. Just picture it. A bunch of unsupervised teenagers travelling undercover through enemy territory, trying to blend in… and the only people who have even been there before are 1. A guy who hasnt been there in a century, and 2. The former crown prince who has literally never spoken to a fire nation citizen who wasnt nobility, military, or one of his servants.
Like. Neither of them have any idea what they’re doing, or how normal fire nation citizens act, but they’re pretty sure the other one is wrong. Rest of the gaang knows even less. No adults. Zuko and Aang getting into a shouting debate over the finer points of fire nation culture is a nightly event. They are both so wrong, and so, so awkward
Zuko, for the fifth and probably not last time: FOR THE LAST TIME, NOBODY USES THE PHRASE ‘FLAMEO HOTMAN’!
Aang, aware of that fact but in too deep to back out now: OH YEAH? THEN WHAT DO THEY SAY!?
Zuko, clueless and bluffing: …Something about glory to the Fire Lord?
Toph, well aware that both are lying through their teeth and have no idea what they’re talking about, and fucking loving every second of this train wreck: Clearly the only solution is for both of you to go into town tomorrow and test your theories out.
And the side taking, oh my god the side taking from the other three. Katara sides with Aang every single time. Does she honestly believe that the people of the Fire Nation greet each other with ‘Flame on, my em-brother’? Hell no. Would she rather die than say that Zuko’s correct? Yes.
Sokka usually sides with Zuko, unless he comes up with something astoundingly stupid. Zuko’s thoughts, while usually wrong, sound a lot more plausible then Aangs, and fuck it he’s willing to take a gamble.
Toph is the closest thing to a neutral party they have, in that she knows damn well they’re all full of shit, and has chosen to instead egg them on to make it worse. She’s an agent of chaos, and this is free nightly entertainment. She’s having the time of her life right now.
The debate takes a brief pause once they stop going undercover and get to the business of actually saving the world, but holy shit. once things have settled down? it’s back on with a vengeance. Except now Aang and Zuko aren’t the two most wanted people in the Fire Nation, they’re the two most influential people in the world. They are trendsetters. They can make slang become a thing.
When Zuko first hears the phrase ‘flameo, hotman’ being thrown around casually, it takes a lot of deep breathing exercises to not immediately return to his previous occupation of hunting the Avatar.
Iroh: I’m so proud of the way you’ve been ruling, nephew. Flameo, hotman!
Zuko, in tears: How could you say that
You fools, zuko would ban the term “flameo”. It’s the only form of power abuse hell ever commit, but ho boy does he ever abuse it here.
Bold of you to assume Iroh can be stopped by a law
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